Today I tried a new meditation called Mediation on Twin Hearts with Self-Pranic Healing by Master Choa Kok Sui.  This was a very pleasant experience but also enlightened me to the fact that I've become too much a part of my world.  A part of the meditation focuses on the heart chakra and a part on the crown chakra (at the top of the head).  When I put my attention on my heart, I was given the thought "You've forgotten me."  And when I put my attention on my crown chakra, I was given the message "You've ignored me."  This was totally unexpected, but not necessarily surprising.  I have abandoned the inner voice that wants me to be loving and kind.  I have also taken on the outer coldness of my work situation.  Now I just need to figure out a way to survive in a competitive environment but yet get back to a loving state of humanness.